Because He's Not There

Because He's Not There


Because He's Not There

How could I've let myself
Have an invisible friend of
You that was never there
He wouldn't keep promises
As a figment can't
Only letting me know of
Wishes I did not hold
Letting go of each moment
As much as I could
For the staying was breaking
My presence of me
It would have taken
All I had left as
Only a healing mind can
Dance on the edge as
Walls come down that
Once held the monsters
That the girl within me
Still screams from
He could've held her
If he were ever there
So unbound by comfort
Of what I have left
To put together now
Maybe you still are
Somewhere not this
That after my mending
I can find a glimpse of

On the other end of pretending
I thought I felt moping
As he was no longer touching
Only my mind justifying
To reach out for you once more
To give in to daydreams
Of a disbelievable experience
To hide the forever of finding you
If only that real man of you
Could keep promises to himself
Of things that involve such as me
It shall be a part of
My list of boundaries that
You really are as authentic as seen
Learning new things inside me
That was meant for me as a child
Again she's not held in this
Lonely experience of all
Darkness is faced as close to once
As instantaneous as my wishes
To have all that was taken
By greedy hungry hearts
Hollow as their unloving
As the memories of them
Walk off of my walls
If only there was more than
My own arms to hold me
Standing in all this ruble
I will hold the child running

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