Feb 2016

Monster Dust, For You, My Love

Monster Dust

Monster Dust, For You, My Love

No move until you conquer self
In terror of the barren three months
It could be always added again
What is the list to be taken upon
That you must build who you are
To be safe in a place that could be
My arms or just pictures of them
Am I safe already here, ready
I can become my tower without you
Will I abandon the bricks that
Built our world once upon a time
Imagined and fantasized and shared it
Does this trauma I feel near a friend
What you face like a wall before my
Open door of love you've never had
Will this be all you need to kill
Terror butterflies taking your breath
Show me how to do the same for
Pictures of my real kind of beauty
I hadn't touched because of buried
Mines of knives monsters plotted
Bring me this ease I've had
Into the strength I wore like
Skin so soft it melted under
Touch I haven't felt before
Do your hands hold this for me
Can you show me your love
To build again my heart's power
Onto these papers of my smiles

There in the wilderness of horses
I will be naked upon their backs
With ease of the joy I've rebirthed
Because the before is dead and rotted
Pulled out of me, to not rot me
Put on the wind, back to the monsters
Giving me these babies of hope
That I can feel like before only
Stronger, like a bionic soul
Better than before, leaping over
Creepy crawly messes not mine
Into a star filled escapade
Onto a stage I'm adored
Watch me reach the masses
Is there, where you will be
Give me my boost into flight
Don't wait for my admirers runs
Bring them to me because you think
Of me despite one more wait
Give me this gap you sewed us
So I can wrap me in it until I find
You holding my cocoon of us
To tear me open with new wings
You could sleep upon them even
If my flight was continuous
From the moment I sought you
As mentor for my child to mentor
For me, to silly boy for my silly girl
Inside where we still dance and spring

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If You Took the Time You Needed

If You Took The Time You Needed

If You Took the Time You Needed

Along the weeds of psychic abuses
I think I've walked in the thick
Yet, there was where I found you
With your own power to inquire
As to who was stomping on your ground
Just when you thought no woman could be
From a list you made to isolate you
Out in the barren lands of Universe
That you accepted once to be alone there
Because abusers couldn't enter
Then me, with my own island found
A line invisible to cross into where
We could share our preparations
Of how healthy we could become
For a bond we still touch hands with
Because we are both remaining
On this long walk together, yet
Physically searching for the other
Will you in this letting go of all this
Find the road we are to adorn
Then time may always step out
Of the way for our dances
With the Spring changing these
Dried grasses to flowers and nectar
Soft green under our feet we bare
Will the next Winter come together
Remembering fires beside us
Holding inside cocoons and screaming
Winds on the door to hold even closer

Would there be a stream to hear
Along what no longer obstacles dreams
Because we both have one beside us
Does the stalks our hands reach for
Brush us with velvet encouraged wanders
Did we really strip it bare of life
That once demanded our souls into
Life that embraces our folds
As twinkling quantums forced us
To be soft inside our insided sight
Where again we remain together there
Promising an impossible way
Yet, a way would come despite
Hold me again my winding brain
Tunnels only you know are there
For your own is the key, always
As no other has ever been because
No one that meant harm could
Find the way the light gave us
Nor find the kind of love waiting there
As shadows shrieked and screamed
When they were forced out with our
Sun in our Lilith of emotions
Even if you only hold onto mine
We close our eyes there and feel
Hearing our streams meet and promises
We can walk on the water of each others
Tears we healed a world with
Only the Universe was watching

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Beyond Holiday's Blood

Beyond Holiday's Blood

Beyond Holiday's Blood

If I write, “I love you”
In red ink, along the edges
Of stained linen sheets
To be beside your bedside
Whispering even when it folds
Of the miles I crawled
For your ears and arms upon me
If the scent lasted of roses
And dragons blood's curdled
Could you smell the vanilla
From my skin full of sweat
And sweetness I was in heat of
Your light voice and your displayed
Arms holding giant masks to film
As I lounge here with palest skin
Naked for viewing of my curves
Revealed with heavy 1920's lens
To see my deep eyes and
Bubble gum knees to open when
You lay beside me to kiss me
With only lips and hint of tongue
To kiss my lips even more
Would you be warm upon me
To feel your hard body grabbing
My figure still viewed in dreams
Of silent movie queens, unrated
To hold a thin man, pale of ancestry
Perhaps of a dark hint across your cheekbones
Because native sings in your moves

Where your heart slept on pillows
Along your body thinking of mine
Perhaps pushed up on another image
Of me holding you from both sides
Heavy blankets down in your cave
Of me visiting upon your body
Surrounded by your every desire
Of my own longings of you
Does the night go like this, even
When you've abandoned me
A hundred times to return again
Because I am your more and your love
You've waited since I was twelve
I've waited since you were born
Your promise to me that if I
Beat that curse and torture of me
That you would arrive in clouds
To show me the rest of the way
Out of too many traps upon my
Heart that was just waiting for you
Did it hurt the entangle you agreed
To conquer to rise even taller
So I could find your soft LOUD there
Beaconing my breath and my breast
To follow a mentor I’d let my daughter
Follow with her biggest sun
An eagle you earned, yet silent
Like an owl worn upon you instead
As an eagle invincing your owl coats

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If a Meadow Were Just an Empty Horse Rink

If a Meadow Were Just an Empty Horse Rink

If a Meadow Were Just an Empty Horse Rink

How come I always know
It is you, well mostly
With how it feels when I
Read the line you gave to me
As your watched presence
Has made impressions of such
Nonsense silliness that I find
Quite enjoyable as well in my
Inward smile you make me
Remember your oddities we
Share in the stupid humor feeling
Hidden in that falling me down
I feel the warm in glimpse of view
You again long for more of and
Maybe miss the in shower reading
To close my eyes to the heat
Of fresh skin and muscle hints
Cream across my tingling form
Wishing you were there in my
Constant view of me again
As you dangle your own
Efforts of where you could be
Hanging onto the moments you
Found you again to me, ease
Finding a longer hold on empathy
You just may show up on my
Door of when I put a world
A place where I close my eyes
Because I can rest in this almost

I talk of you hinting you are
Mine when a future might move
As I find this dance alone well
In the waves of my brain paths
That just might stay with bridge
Repaired to hold another land
That sees light and margins
As boundaries think they always
Were apart of my before birth
And mostly a deal with my whole
To remember I wanted my heart
Whole as the spirit holding her
As you were tapped from behind
With your own spirit to hold you
Can you hold me all night again
Like when you searched for my
Name in wakening whispers
After night long dreams of being
One, beyond the passing of
Someone walking through me
At my grave, instead filled
With where you lay inside me
To sleep in your own memory
Of a time when you used to
Hold me through the night from
There where you wished a longer
Leap than the multiverse rise
Quantumed before your before you
Before a me and pure bare

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Am I at the Last Layer to Become

Am I at the Last layer to Become

Am I at the Last Layer to Become

Crawling tears of force
Feels like “Mama hold me”
Yet, I still open my eyes
Knowing you lurked in every
Thought about me upon the wind
Helped me take a breath of that
And shudders shake as all
That went away with morning bright
Of course That Mother never held me
Yet your spirit would
And does now, in fetus around my
Wounds from when I slept
Too long upon death's breath
As you inquired of the attraction
I was making and you heated with
Imbalance of your not here
About all my adventures
Despite your own cinema wide
World you hadn't moved toward
Me here, something, as you gain
Balance and sooth such why's
As to when you would be
With me, move to me, fill me
Even while you inquire again
I'll be this circled with friends
I'll be this star being polished
As you've glittered and trying
To glitter upon a haunted fire

So, you talk of aliens and what
They would be like with humor
And I want to know too of this
Whether conspiracy or ancient
You have hinted that you grasp
The conversations you've wished
You could have shared as my friend
As someone underneath his own
Fish guided depths with half eaten
Sweetness to show how much you
Frumped upon the scene as
Thin man in untailored PLUS sweater
On mountain full of filled heads
Of movies to show, movies to be
And you there, regularly observing
You in the life of a life in
Lit like it sounds from the corners
Did you cuddle again inside me
While you pondered the rewarded
With stage full of humor for aliens
With photograph moving: Of horror
Because you too have learned to
Carry your sun into every darkness
To carry your ego to mark Lilith
Because your ego has met max
And your Id too had met zero
To find this place you walk with
Full awareness of your light
To touch with more laughter

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