Remedy Alone

Remedy Alone

Remedy Alone

What is poison, if swallowed or not
If in love with that monster
Whom am I to trust my own light
As I've exposed to find myself
Where he never was and I wandered
I found myself looking upon open
Grave I was dug into with dust
In my lungs, I crawled the air
To any mentor, to find my soul
Where I walked toward guardian
Snakes ate the poxes for my path
Swallowing demons whole, from him
If my very digestive tissue were
To become its own living being
For awhile, my friend would take
All of those heavy metals from me
Then what would the teacher I found
Appear to me there, or at all
As if like cards thrown to my fate
I found profilers real and fiction
Whether telling me in plot or facts
I found paintings of monsters
Of wounds I still mend in screams
Could anyone that played with such
Horrors, show me their own as well
And shall I ever touch such kind
As I become a whole spirit again
How safe are their fears I will trigger

If we shared notes, would my
Weaknesses be used on my strengths
As boundary bouncing tells me
To go my own way once again
Can such dances of those who could
Even begin to understand my complex
Be healed enough to swim along
Creative surges of more than catalyst
As projects and products could play
With such deep emotions buried
To be unburied, if such love touched
Would such a guide of my heart
Ever be in this life, after my demise
Risen from muck, not ashes as
Bile still bleeds from my innocence
Shall I keep this walk alone as
Business builds my lover in stories
As life says only in your head
Or if I tried in face of danger
To feel again for a man's heart
Would he be strong enough to be
Vulnerable in my life as I keep
Walking along my own awakening
Because I cannot trust their darkness
For the love of my self had left me
False in the arms of that monster
Who'd poison me again, if not shoot
Would they prey on my soul to
Just be the mate of my distrust

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