Who Are You Now?

Who Are You Now

Who Are You Now?

Shall I find the level I want you
In just a list of words streaming
To loosen the lost you created
As I've learned my healthy distance
When you are in the middle of madness
To destroy your paths ruthlessly
Because you changed to irrational pains
As if they would save you when
They never had that duty
Can't you see it is what held you
Back, despite you've soared
Because where would your wings touch
If you didn't have your father’s pins
In each feather in perfect display
Of your puppet-string-anger
Should you pull them with one
Jerk and cut, to be freed of his
Wishes upon everyone you loved
Can you see that the bravery of
Every single responsible emotion
Can be freeing and any level of
Nevermind the multi-layered feelings
You've denied your notice of until
You checked each moment for
The complexity you now allow
And unfold under camera's watch
If there were an always audience
As your spirit witnesses your love
Always in the list, to hold onto

If love were really always there
What damage would you pull
To not feel it for a moment
Because the person you want to become
In my eyes, causes your rebellion
Into sabotage, into masochism
Yet, in the deepest of your self-
Inflicted pain, the love for me remained
Perhaps it is the rational mind of
My emotions and my compassion
Even when I feel a hundred feelings
I let go of control as they piled
I pulled away and felt the whole
Time I witnessed your screams
You did everything to put upon me
I did the favor to allow you your
Suffering to free your visions of
Who you really are and have been
Under the nailed pictures of you
Across your sight of your heart
Because Father knew the strength you
Held if it were revealed to you
Can you keep what you found
Naked before your reflection
With every emotion in your eyes
Of what you wish to show me
Can you make-up for the knives
You no longer own, to mend
These cuts still raw upon me

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