Examined Thoughts of Living

Examined Thoughts of Living

Examined Thoughts of Living

Sharp pain in my tail
As it twists around
The places you leave
And return to claw
From an inside I want
You to curl into instead
Into me to tie me on
A stick and drag me
To follow against me
Pulling me apart with
The place I am keeping me
Despite the force of your world
I close my eyes to
Find all holds gone and
Into the swallow of
Shedding the dead girl
You took for your own
I run back to my
Own arms to hold me
Where only the trail of
Warm stars carve
Dust into my spirit's
Becoming a spin under
My breath for their
Light in the Lilith of night
I hold my sun under
My breasts to glitter
The steps that are always

There, between my blinks
Of which world was dreams
I've waited on the inside
As my own masks to me
Melted my who-I-was
With tall versions straight
To fire eruptions into sun
Softened by my unknown love
From behind all that shined
Never as scary there as
Mother, I thought hidden
She didn't hide in me as I
Feared becoming and instead
Eased into little bursts
Of better me there
All along because of you
Pushing and changing to be
Molded into what I saw once
Because you said that was
You underneath your father
So I faced him too many
Times for glimpses of your
Soft, and you've managed
To stay with him no longer
At bay, just gone in
Sometimes mumbles of
Boy surviving the world
Without a monster to face it
Only the bravest of your truth now

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