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Integrity Unrevealed Can Find Doors

Integrity Unrevealed Can Find Doors



Integrity Unrevealed Can Find Doors


Integrity is more important than anything you could read about a person from intuition. It does not matter what is underneath when it does not come to the surface pleasantly. Yes, I do think the way the heart is, is important, even if no one ever sees it. I am talking about a different underneath. Maybe it is because some are wounded beyond prepare and maybe some never learn to gain what the heart can give by having empathy. I do feel I am a bit psychic as most deeply feeling people can view themselves. It is not what I discover as to why someone is the way they are or that they wish to be something that I can even see them being, it is what they bring. What are the facts?

It has been hard for me at times to view things or people this way because I too am a quiet, complex person, but I do bring the facts that I am who I am; even if people think it is alien to their world. I claim my weird and my way of thinking and if I write about you or anyone, they will see for themselves exactly the way I feel if it is a poem or if fiction, it may play out in several characters and plot themes, but never a surprise if you can see yourself there that is. Well, only a surprise that someone else saw you, I guess. Some people do not think anyone can read them or their pain. Some people even think they can hide how extremely intelligent they are, but people like me, maybe rare, can see this. I can also be quite disappointed to never meet these people they have in them, underneath.

I do my best to know what is between lines because I do not read people the way most do. So, when I know what they can be, but facts and instances never prove forward or in the open, it can be sad. On the other hand, I've met some wonderful people that have appreciated that I could see them and want to show it more. Like admitting I am a catalyst in the article before and in other discussions, my interactions do get felt. People do feel revealed. Now, are they a blossom?

I am about to go on another adventure and I will be bringing with me this new understanding that I must also see what is being shown, not leaked through. If someone does not want anyone to know they are special, they will guard it, and they can hurt me or others that see it. So, of course, I am watching for this. Me, being a creator, a person of deep thought and imagination, can find it hard to not glimpse happiness where it may not want to stay. I hope those of you reading this do not experience that out of another, but some wish to remain sad (or don't know how not to wish to remain to be sad) and they don't want you to know them, no matter what you will know about them. If you do, remember to remain to what is seen, not felt. You can feel the want and be drawn to their passion, but they may not want to share, no matter such love or biology that stirs in them. Some think feeling love is an enemy.

Now, of course, the fact you
want to see and what can be pretty revealing pretty soon, is are they able to empathize or just make small talk that feels like they could? This is tricky. We all want to be understood and we have met people that never met people like us and we want to give them a chance to soak in the “strange,” hoping they will like it as much as your work (if you have revealing work, like me). There are some people in the world that can't understand that fiction, or a made-up-painting is very revealing of reality. So, when they meet someone like us, they won't get that all those works of art are us too. It is like The Hero With A Thousand Faces by Joseph Campbell, who proves that myths are in every tale and in every aspect of our lives, we are all our works and what masks they are bringing to us. I think anyone can be a Threshold Guardian and remember to go through the threshold, even when you are struck by the shock of them taking out this mask for you. Gratitude can come from even this kind of pain, you know now, so move into your light and they will find whatever they need when you go. They couldn't show up? Then don't pretend they did and you go show up where you are.

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Catalyst Crash

Catalyst Crash


Catalyst Crash


I am a catalyst and unfortunately, not every encounter is up to a trigger. What is your talent, a screaming one or a secret one? With me, it will emerge or get you itching to do, and then connections start clicking. I've mentioned such before in descriptions of me, but as tempting as it sounds to work with me, you must have the strength to handle your own dreams and who you really want to be. Sometimes this is welcome and a project is going before we've finished our conversation and other times, the defensive side comes out in a person and they want even my work to stop. I'm a bit immune to the later now. It took a while, but I keep going, even when disappointed their potential must be abandoned by my side at least.

I am trying to figure out how to remain friends, do my work, and let them prove to me what they want to do, instead of giving up on the people I care about. It takes a lot of patience and a skill I needed, how to not stay hurt. It would seem, I am learning quite fast, and some friends can be up for the task. I like this new world I've built and my new tribe to go along with it. Now, if I could learn to communicate on the level everyone needs. Where do I become silent? I've been quiet lately, studying how to speak to my audience in a way they are hungry for and along comes a new friend that demands I speak only this way at times. See, we get what we ask for, now, what to do with it.

I wasn't as ready as I wanted to be this time. Maybe more than I thought as I have demanded respect in such requests of me to speak “normal” by someone else's standards. I've pulled back, quiet and watching as he thinks about whether I am also right. I do know, despite any feelings hurt, I wish to remain compassionate and only focused on what is confusing because other areas speak of interest that aches to be spoken. Those areas are left, speaking with eyes and distance for now. This place I am in, is interesting and as much as it gets my friend working on his projects so that he can think; I too am working and thinking. Perhaps I will learn to speak to these awaiting fans by observing this genius of unspoken, yet quite loud, interaction despite “mute.”

What about this audience I already have? Have you felt triggered to work from me? I have seen and felt many approach my writing (and art) and have it take them to things they didn't know was in them to do. I enjoy this. But, if such is triggered in you often from reading me, what has you return? I am seeing this live in my life right now. It seems like a slow motion action scene I swim in daily. I think it is a kind of magic I have never touched. Perhaps it is as simple as meeting a fellow catalyst and calling him my friend and then discover that our two different worlds we don't understand of the other’s, begins a storm. I am willing to be a new storm, meeting a new storm and finding the calm when two storms hit. Then, another storm begins, as a constant creative trigger from a friend. I will be thankful for this and hope I am strong enough to handle the same dance I've demanded from others all my life.


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Rural

Rural


Rural


Rural country towns are mysteries to the passer-byes along the veins of roads across America, or even to the very state lived in. They are small, as the definition of town indicates, and full of reborn life. Many were abandoned about thirty years ago, but over the past five years have been found again. Like the tulip that pushed through the newly paved gravel, to make a driveway pad near a run down home, that had been recently given new life, not even glimpsing the emptiness it once held; looking almost as if it had always been kept up. Empty streets once where everyone congregated, with the only evidence of such left a being called
Main Street, yet no stores remained. Something more wonderful...possibilities of rebuilt and homes.

With cars the way they are now, and the internet bringing anything to your door, the whole world can touch them, if only found. This is why some of us
have found them. We enjoy the love, close neighbors, and a good bartering. It really is an island in sea long fields, or at least the one I found. This one, in fact was named an Italian female name for “Seaport” in the middle of the prairie. I thought I was the only one that thought the vast grasslands I drove through reminded me of such waters, with the sudden life springing out of them, as groups of starlings and wild winds (which is why the windmills multiply).

Sometimes if you hunt, you may even find camp grounds in these or some small bed-and-breakfast waiting for you. You can experience the life, for a night or weeks, and see if it sucks you into looking for your own home there. The bus to school, the long roads out of town to walk, the quiet (that only birds in the distance and the roaring waters of interstate behind them can sound); could give you a reason to count how many chickens you may want to get for your yard. Can you get a taste for it? Rural prairie versus rural mountains, versus along the actual ocean roads; all have their own flavor across this country. I would think Europe the same, after all, many go there to just backpack across, finding the villages. Well, here, in the states, there are welcoming spots all dotted along the smallest highways to along the unseen exits of the interstates. They are being rebuilt. They represent what the larger cities may become, in understanding of interrelations.

Yes, many used to think small towns were sometimes two decades behind the bigger cities, and maybe in the 1960's they were, but now, they are quite the opposite. It may be hidden, with friendly neighborhood smiles, there are geniuses making new life here. Perhaps telling my secret treasures will make it a little harder to get my house as more congregate towards these ideals, but it is worth the tell. This ha been such a beautiful, fulfilling experience that I'm having when I went out on my adventure to in find my own art retreat. If I have my camera or my sketch pad, I am fed creativity like breath. I was only making my new start a grand adventure and it would seem, I found it.

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Director-Writer Partnership

director-writer partnership

Director-Writer Partnership


I am a novelist, so technically I understand what a director does as far as making a picture. I choose to not be a director, I like the way I do my work and when I write a script, I enjoy what it becomes with an other's vision. I get very well, the ones that choose to write and direct, to make their world seen, it is what I do in a novel or in a painting for the cover of a novel, but that is enough for me. Now, in this film industry world, where do I stand? I think I need to find a good partnership with a director, but am I leaving out opportunity with many different directors, since I am of a rare mind, of many different genres and styles.

I'll start with a producer, though many know I am willing to be a producer myself one day; so, meeting and working with them is a great opportunity to learn. The thing is, that is if they let me in. To be just a scriptwriter leaves you out of a lot of things. Even if I give promises to not interfere, just learn, I think I would be pushed further and further back. So, again, I look for a partnership. Do they have those anymore? In the 1950's musicals, there were writer-director partnerships that made a whole line of movies to their name. Yes, I've seen a few one time partnerships in independent film, and of course there have been a few blockbuster lines of movies in the 1970's and 1980's with partnerships too. It does not seem to be a goal but a decision in the planning led them there.

I want one that when my name is thought of in movies, so is my partner's and visa versa. Do you see this? Have you also wondered where they all went and if that is the end of such things in the movies anymore? I have. I want it and strive for it, but I also want my movies made, and I do my queries with just me attached to the request because I'm only entering this world. I understand it pretty well for an outsider, but am still an outsider. Everyone is at one time, and then things change, we get that experience without even looking.

Now, of course, with the added hot topic, that I am a woman writer, what do I do? Besides enter this industry like everyone else does, one leg at a time. I mean, a partner. Do I go for the woman and be linked with this world as a duo-female team, or do I gain a male as a partner, putting the male thoughts into what was once female thoughts and getting the most out of the story, like companies that have equal men and women at the board. Or, just let life bring me a friend and wait and see, like a C
racker Jacks prize. I'm already trying to recruit my friend that took pictures of me to help me make a short documentary of me. She is wary but curious. It is also a must, to fit into two people's separate busy schedules because we'd only be paid for the art of it at this point, or until we learn as we go a bit more. I mean unless there is a demand for a freshly divorced Asberger single mother home schooling her same minded daughter while she survives on minimal income from ex, to have her career as author-artist-model make it reality shows. Yes, a man would do any struggle to make it. No one would think twice of his commitment to a career, to his successes. A woman would to, this woman is.

Life is magic like this you know. As you sit there with your own version of things, waiting to know answers for your next steps, remember, find any step you can take and the other steps will find you. That whole huge saying
build it and they will come. That is true for you and me. It is for my partner, and my connections, as well as any order Source wants to put it, while I keep sticking my neck out to the next level of height. There are a lot more people that fit my wishes and goals, each level I go up. Do you really think video games and D&D invented level ups? It is how you become someone, or show everyone else you are someone, since you know you already are. Are you someone? Then, find those steps and go up another level with me. Maybe on one of those levels I’ll discover I really am a writer-director or writer independent and loud.

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