Catalyst Crash

Catalyst Crash


Catalyst Crash


I am a catalyst and unfortunately, not every encounter is up to a trigger. What is your talent, a screaming one or a secret one? With me, it will emerge or get you itching to do, and then connections start clicking. I've mentioned such before in descriptions of me, but as tempting as it sounds to work with me, you must have the strength to handle your own dreams and who you really want to be. Sometimes this is welcome and a project is going before we've finished our conversation and other times, the defensive side comes out in a person and they want even my work to stop. I'm a bit immune to the later now. It took a while, but I keep going, even when disappointed their potential must be abandoned by my side at least.

I am trying to figure out how to remain friends, do my work, and let them prove to me what they want to do, instead of giving up on the people I care about. It takes a lot of patience and a skill I needed, how to not stay hurt. It would seem, I am learning quite fast, and some friends can be up for the task. I like this new world I've built and my new tribe to go along with it. Now, if I could learn to communicate on the level everyone needs. Where do I become silent? I've been quiet lately, studying how to speak to my audience in a way they are hungry for and along comes a new friend that demands I speak only this way at times. See, we get what we ask for, now, what to do with it.

I wasn't as ready as I wanted to be this time. Maybe more than I thought as I have demanded respect in such requests of me to speak “normal” by someone else's standards. I've pulled back, quiet and watching as he thinks about whether I am also right. I do know, despite any feelings hurt, I wish to remain compassionate and only focused on what is confusing because other areas speak of interest that aches to be spoken. Those areas are left, speaking with eyes and distance for now. This place I am in, is interesting and as much as it gets my friend working on his projects so that he can think; I too am working and thinking. Perhaps I will learn to speak to these awaiting fans by observing this genius of unspoken, yet quite loud, interaction despite “mute.”

What about this audience I already have? Have you felt triggered to work from me? I have seen and felt many approach my writing (and art) and have it take them to things they didn't know was in them to do. I enjoy this. But, if such is triggered in you often from reading me, what has you return? I am seeing this live in my life right now. It seems like a slow motion action scene I swim in daily. I think it is a kind of magic I have never touched. Perhaps it is as simple as meeting a fellow catalyst and calling him my friend and then discover that our two different worlds we don't understand of the other’s, begins a storm. I am willing to be a new storm, meeting a new storm and finding the calm when two storms hit. Then, another storm begins, as a constant creative trigger from a friend. I will be thankful for this and hope I am strong enough to handle the same dance I've demanded from others all my life.


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